Entries for March, 2008

March 1st, 2008

A Very Heart-warming (Dramatic...) Speech... They say...

Our graduation ball ended just last week... but the euphoria's still lingered in the atmosphere. We even say that the event was 'bitin'. Seems like everyone wanted to make a REAL night out of it - we were in our last year in high school so I think it's natural...

Anyway, during the program, I was one of the few people who were selected from each of our 3 sections to deliver a testimony about what our school has done for us. Hell, I almost cried with mine and when I walked by our principal, she said that I left an impression on them... hmm... I'll leave that for you to decide. Here's my speech:

 

How would you react if I say that I’m timid, shy and laid-back? Would you believe me? Probably, you won’t. You would even think of it as a huge joke. Of course, even if it is indeed a joke, who would fall for it? What I said was quite contradicting to what I am today. And I, myself, refuse to affirm that those qualities were once held by me. But no matter how unrealistic my statement may seem, it serves as an evidence as to how Colegio de Sta. Cecilia and the people behind it, my peers and my mentors, was able to influence me to become a better individual.

I remember my younger self from ten years ago before I entered the school that I now call my alma mater – a person who is indifferent, alienates herself from others and considers herself as the center of the universe. Someone who would isolate herself from others, acting as if she’s the sun and the others were just little planets revolving around her miniscule form, not minding her existence. I hardly have anyone to be with at that time to the point that I even forget their names. But then, I enrolled Colegio de Sta Cecilia. That’s when I experienced significant changes in my life – growing as an individual and creating an identity that only I can brag about.

I entered my first day at the school having the same thing as what I have in my mind back in my kindergarten years – that people revolve around me because I’m here. Strange enough, I left the gates of the school with a new ideology: I want to change myself. I want to let the world know that I'm not a girl who will only sit and wait, and most certainly, I’m not the center of the whole universe. It was then that I started interacting with others – my teachers and my friends, learning how enjoyable it is to go out of my own shell to see what the outside world has in store for me… learning what the true value of companionship is. There, I met hundreds of people who all became an important part of me and my own development as a person. One of them even saved my life once!

CDSC became the foundation of my knowledge and skills. Not only did it teach me how to grow and mature as an individual but also how to develop my skills and potential for everything. It served as an instrument for me to know that there is a world beyond the four corners of my humble abode. My world expanded as I met more people and by the time I was in my fourth year, I became someone who was taught on how to pursue her own goals without failing to trust in her abilities. And now, I am here, part of the graduating class of 2007-2008.

For a decade, I grew witness to the endeavors of my alma mater and she, in turn, watched as I grew up from a timid child to a matured individual who no longer thinks that she’s the center of the universe and ready to face the next phase of life that she is going to enter.

A writer once said: "as we walk on our own roads, as we live our own lives, relish the road. And relish the fact that the road of life will probably be a windy road. Something like—the yellow brick road in the wizard of Oz. You see the glory of Oz up ahead—but there are lots of twists and turns along the way—lots of tin men, lots of green women." But with the way of life that CDSC has taught us, I’m pretty sure that we would be able to reach the said glory of Oz.

A pleasant night to all and thank you.

Shoot, I myself don't want the night to end but everything must come to that... It was kind of disappointing that I only got few pictures from that night... so the only solution is 'mang-arbor' (the Filipino term for borrow first before asking permission... kinda?). So thanks to those people who (unwillingly) lent their pictures... :P


101 and Carla...

^101 with Carla...

Comp. Teacher namin...

^Comp. Teacher namin... Last Dance ko... :P

Marlo!

^One of the most amazing people I've met... Marlo. I do wonder sometimes where he gets his confidence. Could you lend me some?

'Kay... Nuff said... Semi-Finals are coming up so I have to focus on reviewing... 'JA!

Azie

Currently listening to: Still
Currently feeling: touched
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March 11th, 2008

Last one of those tight project weeks!

Exams are done! *whew* that was a ton of hell. I'm really glad that it's over >_< Now all I have to worry about is the projects that we have to pass and our El Filibusterismo presentation. This is going to be one hell of a week... I wish I could make it... a few more weeks and it'll be our graduation.

 

At merong isang tao dyan na nangungulit sa paggawa ng video... W8 lng puh!

 

Azie

Currently listening to: Hangin
Currently feeling: sleepy
Posted by azuresonata at 11:56 AM in Life as we know it | 1 Marks left

March 14th, 2008

Something has changed...?

Somehow, I felt disappointed with the progress in my own life... particularly with my relationship with my own friends - specifically with my best buds. We even celebrated the 6th month of our close friendship... One thing that I never did with any of my other friends before. I treasured that friendship more than anything. But somehow, things started to change... after the graduation ball.

I surfed the net that time before I went to bed. One thing that I never miss is that I read comments from their friendster profiles to kill boredom when downloading music etc.  One thing caught my eye is a comment from a person who I really 'hated' (I think that's the word?) for calling me 'G*go'...  because I ignored me... like:

"G*ago pala xa eh...!"

It said something like: "Tulungan mo naman ako dun sa friend mo... etc. Gusto ko nang makipagbati.. blah blah blah..." Fine gusto mong makipagbati but isn't it more... sincere kung di mo padadaanin sa ibang tao? He even did that when he tried-to-court-me-but-failed-before-he-even-attempted. The thing is that my friends never told me a single thing about it and when I read that, I felt disappointed but I kept telling myself that... "Oh! They will tell me about this tomorrow! I'll just wait!" I kept waiting until I distanced myself from them... what I didn't know is that they are also distancing themselves away from me (This, I didn't knew until today)! Oh great!
We BOTH are keeping meters from each other!

 This morning, I received a letter from them saying: "... nakakinis na kasi... sana bumalik yung dating Bebang na kilala namin...". I wrote back and said sorry... but along with that is the reply: "Ou nag-bago nga ako... Iba kasi nagagawa kapag nawala yung trust moh sa mga kaibigan mo... It's better na lumayo muna ako before I could say something that's not nice.

Naitanong ko sa sarili ko... matatawag mo bang kaibigan yung taong inililihim sau yung dapat mong malaman samantalang may kinalaman ka?" But I never asked them that... because even if the trust that I held started to falter, meron pa rin namang natitira... yun yung hope that they will tell me what I should know... May maliit na tiwala pa ring natitira... naghihintay lang... but they never did.

 Alam ko yung naging mali ko... I realized that. Kasalanan ko. Fault ko na rin na nagkimkim ako ng ganoong disappointment sa kanila. Hindi ko sinabi. Because I am scared of losing them... Love ko sila weh! Fine... In that letter I blamed them saying, "Akala ko ba walang lihiman... Kau na rin yung sumira nun..." mali ko rin yun... I admit.

Sabi nila, sana bumalik yung dating bebang na kilala nila... Eto lang... kasi yung Bebang na yun, xa yung taong nabuo out of her trust sa kanila. Xa yung taong di madaling magtiwala but they gained her trust... Ngayon, nawala... I dunno kung babalik pa. I'll hope uli... baka sakaling this time...

 

Azie

Currently listening to: You've Got a Friend in Me
Currently feeling: remorseful
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March 16th, 2008

Calm before the storm... :]

I was supposed to post this on March 13... oh well... better late than never! :)...

As usual, nauuna mga honors for deliberation ng grades. I was included as I ranked 2nd with my academic competence. I dind't really know that the deliberation of grades will be today. Tuloy lang kami sa practice for our El Filibusterismo presentation when my adviser entered he room and said, "Tawagan nyo parents nyo... deliberation na mamaya." Honestly... I wasn't paying attention when she said that... :P Ehehe.

Moving on... I didn't call my mom... ewan ko... nakalimutan ko siguro. Di ako umuwi agad instead, nag-practie na lng ako ng fancy drill with my fellow officers... Expected ko na bababa ako sa at least no. 5 kasi nga mababa yung co-curricular activities ko (curse my school and their HUNGER for achievements... OA kasi...).

4:30 - Pumasok si expeted Valeditorian at Salutatorian sa gym... halatang umiiyak... ako wala lang but deep inside, gusto kong malaman... Then nung sumabay na sila sa hanay namin tinanong ko kung anong rank nila... as expected. Di na ako nakatiis tinanong ko yung akin.

Fourth.

Tumango ako. Okay.

Then, pinalabas kami ng gym. Nag-sink in yung thought. FOURTH?! I broke down into tears. Tears of joy... Feeling ko lahat ng hirap ko nabayaran na. Di expected na yun yung magiging rank ko.

I thank God. I'm not expecting to receive a rank higher than five. I was expecting an even lower one. Really... He gave me a wonderful answer to my prayers.

Azie

 

Currently listening to: Go the distance
Currently feeling: Thankful
Posted by azuresonata at 05:19 AM in Life as we know it | 1 Marks left

March 27th, 2008

Totally worn out!

Ga-graduate na lng ang dami pang kailangang gawin... Practice dito, practice doon. Frankly speaking, I don't really get the point of 'perfecting' those. I mean, we were old enough (OMG! Fourth year nah! 15 to 16 years old?!) to remember the things that we should do! I mean, simpleng... tayo - upo - palakpak - akyat ng stage - bow - kamay - thank you - bow ulit - baba ng stage - balik sa upuan - manahimik! It's not really that hard to remember... It's like they were treating us like kids! Makukuha namin yun kahit 2 to 3 practices lang ang kailangan... *sigh* wala rin nmang mangyayari... kahit magreklamo ako, it will continue... or maybe kaya ako ganito kasi sobrang pagod na ako after staying infront of the computer thinking what I should put next to the grad vid that they asked me to make.

 

Anyways, it's good to let these negative feelings go out for once! ^^! I felt relieved! :P

 

4 days na lng until our graduation... I will miss everyone!

 

Azie 

Currently listening to: Breakaway
Currently feeling: tired
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March 29th, 2008

3 days to go...

3 days na lng graduation nah >_<!! Really... I don't want to leave high school yet... It may have been a long bumpy ride but in the end, everything was treasured. Ang daming memories na nabuo for four years. 3 days na lng! >_< tapos di ibawas pa yung Saturday and Sunday! Argh! I wish we could make those moments last.

 

Azie 

Currently listening to: Moshimo Kono Sekai de Kimi to Boku ga Deaenakatta Nara
Currently feeling: hopeful
Posted by azuresonata at 07:09 AM in Life as we know it | Leave your mark!

March 30th, 2008

2 more days...

Yes... I'm counting the days. >_< Parang kahapon lang ayaw ko nang pumasok at gusto ko nang mag-graduation (start ng classes) ngayong patapos nah, I feel the opposite!! Argh! Ang hirap kasi magpaalam dun sa mga nakagawian muh nah.

Tomorrow general practice na ng graduation. Tinatamad na ako. Then the day after that, graduation na! Na-vi-visualize ko na yung mangyayari eh. Tsk... nagpustahan pa naman kami na ang umiyak manlilibre. Tsk! Pa'no yan! Practice pa lng nung song naluluha na ako! Pigil pa un! >_<

Azie 

 

Currently listening to: Pray
Posted by azuresonata at 03:17 AM in Life as we know it | Leave your mark!

March 31st, 2008

1 day to go... at isang pabati na rin.

Really, di ko ma-feel yung graduation namin... I mean, heck! napaka-bland nya! Dry! Kahit yung mga teachers aminado na bland yung graduation namin... tinatamad na rin sila. Ano na lang kaya mangyayari bukas? Iyakan to the max 'to.

 

Happy 7th Monthsary, 101! Guys, miss ko na kayo... pero kilala nyo ako. Alam nyo na yun.

Azie

Currently listening to: Air
Currently feeling: gloomy
Posted by azuresonata at 09:24 AM in Life as we know it | Leave your mark!