Entries for October, 2008

October 13th, 2008

I take that back...

As you guys can see, on my previous post (look down! look down!), I said that I would be leaving Tabulas for a new host.... Oh well... I guess I missed Tabulas that much that I came back. So yeah... I'm back... haha. :)

Currently listening to: A Song of Storm and Fire
Posted by azuresonata at 10:57 AM in Life as we know it | 1 Marks left

Congrats! You Failed at life!

Let's see... So far, nothing good happened to me. I look back and all I see were a bunch mistakes that I have committed. All I see were things I knew I shouldn't have done but ended up surrendering myself to them. And why does it feel like the weight of the whole world was purposely bestowed upon me? I hate this feeling. I'm sick of it.

Am I still in control of my life? Sometimes, I think don't have the authority anymore. Why did I end up with something that only takes half of my interest (BSMMA)? And why did I end up here when I was given the chance to go over there?! Now, I'm trapped. Nowhere to go, no one to ask help from. I'm all alone, bearing the burden of the decisions I made (of which I unwillingly took part). I always put up a smiling face... hoping to forget the misery, hoping that it will act as a temporary cure to alleviate the pain.

Is that enough to call my life a complete failure? 

The uncertainty tears me apart.

I'm close to giving up... but instincts tell me not to. Is it my because of my stubborn nature? Is it because of my pride? or is it because I'm afraid to let go of the only branch I'm holding on to?

Currently listening to: Canon
Currently reading: Math 17 workbook
Posted by azuresonata at 03:22 PM in Life as we know it | Leave your mark!

October 16th, 2008

When everything in your life goes terribly wrong...

Well, in my case, my life went not terribly wrong this year... the perfect word is HORRENDOUSLY. Oh, crap! Even luck's not been on my side lately. I hate it. Sooner or later, I'll fall into a deep case of depression. Scratch that... I'm already depressed. And now, I'm really pissed. Right now, I want to slam my head into something hard - really hard. Then, maybe it'll snap me out of this feeling and I'll be able to go on with my life.

When everything in your life goes terribly wrong, HORRENDOUSLY wrong, just live with it.

What am I to do?! Cry? Sorry to disappoint you, people. I'm not going to cry. Not a single tear, I will shed. My life's depressing enough, thank you very much. Plus, thinking about my past failures makes my head spin. I still have options though (good for me):

  • Complete those unfinished commissions. LOTS of them. I bet their requestors want to hunt me now.
  • Buy a Wacom Intuos Wide. Sleek design + wide tablet area = COOL!
  • Attend the AME Convention. I really, really want to go.
  • Start the novella I'm supposed to write five months ago. I totally forgot.
  • Make preliminary sketches of my manga project. It's a secret y'know!

Ah... really, Life sucks for me. It's totally unfair. Unfortunately, its what makes it perfect.

 

Posted by azuresonata at 06:40 AM in Life as we know it | Leave your mark!

October 23rd, 2008

Thoughts on Kobato Drop 10

Finally! It's out! XD This drop has a lot of chibi people running around. It's so cute!

Oh! Toshihiko has a crush on our Kobato X3!! And Fujimoto's worried about Kobato after the soccer game XD (OTP!) ! So cute! He's really nice to her and he blushed! Aaaaaah!

Uh-huh... this one has a lot of SayakaFujimoto going on. and Fujimoto may be in love with Sayaka-sensei. Nooo! CLAMP, don't break my OTP (FujiBato!)! T.T I'm not against Sayaka, though. It's too hard for me to hate her XP!

Since this is CLAMP, I usually expect pairings like this to come out. But I'm still rooting for Fujimoto and Kobato as the series' OTP. I think SayakaFujimoto is the series' equivalent for YukitoSakura like, if there's any SayakaFujimoto, I think it's more one-sided with Fujimoto being the Sakura (heh) and Sayaka being the Yukito (hahaha). I still keep my hopes up since I still believe that Sayaka still loves her ex-husband and at some point, their story will be explained and we'll all go awww. As for Fujimoto's feelings, just like what I said, I think his feelings are more like Sakura's feelings for Yukito in CCS. It's him loving Sayaka and in the end, he will eventually fall for Kobato.

CLAMP, hear our pleas (yes, it's 'our'. I know a lot of people also want some FujiBato)! Let it be FujiBato in the end. Please don't break my OTP...
 

Currently watching: Jigoku Shoujo
Posted by azuresonata at 05:21 PM in Life as we know it | Leave your mark!

People piss me off (part 1)

this post should've been posted on October 5, 2008.
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Isang bagay na 'di mo dapat gawin kapag bad trip ako: gatungan yung dahilan ng pagiging bad trip ko. Inis ka na nga, iinisin ka pa. So hanggang ngayon inis pa ako. Ay, ang saya! Het oang istorya:

Nagkita kami ng mga HS friends. Bakit? Trip lang naming mamasyal. Pero isa sa mga factors kung bakit hindi ako tumanggi nung nagyaya sila eh kasi bad trip na ako. Umasa ako na matatanggal nung pamamasyal namin yung pagka-bad trip ko.

Maling desisyon. Lalo akong na bad trip.

Usap-usap lang kami sa simula. Ngayon. hindi ko alam kung bakit napunta dun sa bagay na pinagmulan ng pagkasira ng mood ko yung usapan. Ano yon? Math. Pinoproblema ko ang Math nung araw na yun. 'Di lang ako. Yung iba ring kasama namin. Pero hindi ang pagpapalit ng topic ang dahilan kung bakit ako lalong na-bad trip. Tuloy ang usapan tungkol sa nasabing topic (like kung ano yung math ni ganyan at kung gaano kahirap... pagdating sa akin, sinabi ko na may problema ang math ko) hanggang may sinabi yung isa na nag-trigger ng mga nerves sa utak ko. Hayan na... nainis na ako. At ang sinabi nya?

"Haha... Exempted ako sa math!" May kasama pang sayaw yan.

Una sa lahat, hindi ako nainis dahil naiinggit ako sa kanya. Hindi ako maiinggit dahil magkaiba kami ng pinapasukang school (sabihin nating sya ay nag-aaral sa tabi ng ihawan*). Ibig sabihin magkaiba ang antas ng pagtuturo sa pinapasukan namin (ganun naman talaga 'di ba?). Nung naramdaman ko yung feeling ng 'inis' alam ko agad na nainis yun at hindi inggit dahil sa para bang sinasabi nyang "Kawawa naman kayo." Para bang sinasabi nya na ang galing ko, talo ko kayo.

Alam nya nung time na yung na bad trip ako dahil namomoroblema ako sa Math ko.Tapos sasabihin mo yung sa harap ko, at titingin ka pa sa akin habang sinasabi mo yun. Pasalamat ka nakauwi ka ng walang pasa.

Lalo akong na-bad trip dahil dun. Nung time na yun, pinigilan ko yung sarili kong sabihin ang mga sumusunod:

Paunawa, ang susunod na bahagi ng blog na ito ay naglalaman ng hindi magandang pananalita. Kung maari ay huwag ninyong sunugin ang sumulat. Maraming salamat po.

Eto sana yung sasabihin ko sa kanya:

"Buti sa inyo kahit pa-easy-easy nakaka exempt (kasi madalas nyang gm na naglalaro lang sya ng mmorpg bago pumasok... walang effort... pootah). Iginagapang namin yung sa amin  eh. Dinudugo kami every after ng exam, literal na ginagapang yung subject. Buti na lang magkaiba tayo ng pinapasukan... para mahirap magkumpara."

May gusto pa sana akong idagdag. Kaya lang wag na lang.

Sabihin nyo na kung ano gusto nyong sabihin. Wala akong pake.

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*sinabi ko na yung name kung san kilala yung school. I left some clues. Magaling ka bang maghanap?? Kung nakuha mo kung san sya nag-aaral, please, wag mong i-post as comment dito.

May online pa ba?? Wala na siguro.

Crap. Part 1 pa lang yan. Expect a part 2 of this.

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Posted by azuresonata at 05:22 PM in Life as we know it | Leave your mark!

Wanna send someone to hell?

Hehe... I found this site while reading the Wikipedia entry on Jigoku Shoujo's third season (Yes! meron na!):

地獄通信 (Hell Correspondence)

This site is supposedly the "Hell Correspondence" website in the anime, Jigoku Shoujo. The site may only be accessed at midnight (00:00) by one who harbors a desire for revenge against their tormentor. Should someone submit the name of someone against whom they have a grudge, the Jigoku Shōjo (Hell Girl) will offer them a straw doll with a red string wound about its neck. If the string is pulled, she will ferry the target of the revenge straightaway to Hell, however the client agrees to a pact where those who request her intervention will also be sent to hell at the end of their natural lives.

I haven't tested this though haha. I wish it works. I wanna send the bane of my existence to hell. X3

Posted by azuresonata at 05:23 PM in Life as we know it | 1 Marks left

Chibis gone crazy!!

Here I am again with my vocaloid obsession. Haha! I found this "cute" video while browsing Youtube yesterday.

Chibis gone crazy

Yeah... Go on. Click the link XD

Posted by azuresonata at 05:24 PM in Life as we know it | Leave your mark!

October 26th, 2008

Teh Butterfly Award [meme]

Teh Butter Fly Award


Riknata Prince awarded me with the Butterfly Award. Weeee! *clap!clap!*

Um... I think the purposeof this award is to spread the joy of blogging and warmth of friendship X3 haha. Therefore, I'm going to share this award to the following people:

1. Patricia

2. Jixcie

3. Jihad

4. Patrick

5. Maykol <haha... 'Di ko na alam itatawag ko sa kanya XD

7. Yves

8. Kellie

9. Sir Scott

10. 'Tep!

 

Now, the rules:

1. Put the logo on your blog.

2. Add a link to the person who awarded you.

3. Nominate 10 other blogs.

4. Add links to those blogs on yours.

5. Leave a message for your nominees on their blog.

 

To my tagged ones:

Happy posting guys! Spread the word! Or I'll bite you! lolz

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Nope, I have nothing left to say. Ja'!


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CRAP! I HAVE LOTS OF THINGS TO WRITE AND 12 PAGES TO DRAW! AAAAAAH!

 

Azie


 

Currently listening to: Sakasama no Chou
Currently watching: Jigoku Shoujo
Currently feeling: artistic
Posted by azuresonata at 01:12 PM in Life as we know it | Leave your mark!

October 27th, 2008

HOMAY GAHWD!

O.O

'Di ko ma-describe yung emotions ko ngayon. Lalong 'di ko ma-describe kung paano ako mag-rereact.

HOMAY GAWHD!! MAG-RE-REMOVALS AKO SA CS11!

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Anyways, pagtingin ko dun sa grading sheet natulala na lang ako. Tatlo. Tatlong orange tapos pula. Di ko tuloy alam kung matutuwa ako, maiinis o kung ano man. Sayang nakuha ko yung parehong '50-50' mark nya sa parehong subject. 'Di nga lang ako umabot sa 60.

Removals on Wednesday. So, help me God.

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God, pahingi po ng sign na dapat akong lumipat. Thank you.

Kung ibibigay nga talaga sa akin yung sign na yun, may tatakbuhan na ako: Arts and Animation course.



Posted by azuresonata at 10:36 AM in Life as we know it | 1 Marks left

October 28th, 2008

Ippen, shinde miru? && Tales of the Abyss

I gueess this will be my way to kill boredom thing sem break. Considering the I have nothing much to do. Ah... this is life XD.

Yesterday I finished the first two seasons of Jigoku Shoujo. I should add that the last episode of the Futakomori almost made me cry. But I liked how Ai's suffering ended through her death. It was cool. I'm now into the episode 4 (the most recent episode aired) of the new season: Jigoku Shoujo Mitsuganae (where Ai possessed a middle schooler to continue the operations of Jigoku Tsushin). I might consider writing a review for this anime.

Oh! News for the Tales of the Abyss fans there! The anime adaptation of the game aired last October 4 (hey, it's the same airdate as Jigoku Shoujo Mitsuganae!). They reused "Karma" (the opening song of the game) for the anime. I liked it that way. the song is good, anyway. i don't mind them reusing it. It will ran for 26 episodes. XD! Cool! more anime to watch!

Azie

Currently listening to: Motherland
Currently watching: Tales of the Abyss
Currently feeling: cheerful
Posted by azuresonata at 06:40 AM in Life as we know it | Leave your mark!

On ツバサ-RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE- Chapitre 202 && OAD News

I should have done this last Thursday. I forgot. Haha.

So, because I am made up of molecules which are too lazy to think of something lengthy to write right now, I'll make my review on Tsubasa 202 shorter - waaaaay shorter than my previous Tsubasa chapter reviews:

Oh! I can summarize this chapter in one sentence 8D:

"Fei Wang disappeared taking Shaoran and Watanuki was left at Yuuko's place."

Oh! And the flashbacks finally ended... and we got some answers! I'm so glad, CLAMP!

Syaoran looked really guilty with what he wished for. But what's done is done so he couldn't do anything about it. It's good to see that even though Wata is just his replica, he still doesn't want him to disappear.

I loved how Yuuko covered Watanuki's ears when FWR was being a big meanie.

UGH! I hate to accept the fact that CCS!Syaoran && CCS!Sakura died.

Now it's time to find out how Syaoran's going to fix the problem he created because of his "I-need-to-grab-that-damn-hand-so-I-have-to-go-back-in-time" wish without making Watanuki disappear.

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Now on the OAD:

The title is: Tsubasa Shunraiki (ツバサ 春雷記): Shunraiki: Thunder Record in Spring. It will be released the same time as the xxxHolic OADs:  xxxHOLiC Shunmuki (xxxHOLIC 春夢記), which can be roughly translated as xxxHolic: Dream Record in Spring. (credits to the OAD website)

They're going to do Nihon arc (Kurogane's hometown) not Infinity arc. Aw! I was looking forward to seeing Lantis, Geo, Eagle and Hikaru with new animations! And chibi!Fay! We're going to miss his backstory! But I'm not THAT disappointed. Just sulking haha.

I think for the arc that they are going to skip, they're going to do it as a short flashback instead so we still have a chance to see chibi!Fay. Haha.

what I'm looking forward in this OAD:
1. How clone!Sakura dies. I think it will be beautiful although it's sad. I want to see how they will animate her while she dissolves into Sakura petals.
2. clone!Syaoran's silent scream when clone!Sakura died.
3. real!Syaoran wearing clone!Syaoran's Clow country clothes. I find it really cool~! Oh! kuro and Fay will also don their original suit from chapter 2! Triple cool~!
4. real!Syaoran vs. clone!Syaoran.

I hope it'll be a really good one. I'm going to buy both the xxxholic && Tsubasa OADs

Currently listening to: Kesenai Tsumi
Currently watching: Tales of the abyss
Currently feeling: accomplished
Posted by azuresonata at 02:12 PM in Life as we know it | Leave your mark!

October 29th, 2008

Should I? Back to zero.

Lilipat ba ako?? o.0? Sabi sa akin, maraming "nagpapakamatay" makapasok lang sa UP. Nakapasok ako, fine. Nandito ako ngayon, nag-aaral sa itinuturing na "standard" ng edukasyon sa Pilipinas. Dapat matuwa ako, 'di ba? Iba kasi kapag UP, sabi nila. Bigatin ka daw kapag nandun ka. Dapat proud ka!

 

Ang problema? 'Di na ako masaya sa course ko. Oo, proud ako pero di ko na maramdaman yung "wave of interest" na laging nasa akin nung nasa high school pa ako (high school nasa honors list ako). Nagtataka nga ako eh. Yung programming namin nung high school una pa akong nagpapasa sa mga kaklase ko. Bakit ngayon, ni wala akong ganang gumawa? Kung gagawa man ako, 2 days before the deadline. Cramming! Araw-araw, kapag umuuwi ako, tinatamad ako. Alam kong 'di ako depressed pero parang depressed yung pakiramdam ko. Mabigat palagi. Ayoko pa naman sa lahat yung ginagawa yung bagay na wala na akong interes o ganang gawin.

 

Bakit nga ba ako nandun? Una sa lahat, nag-test lang ako dun for experience. Para alam ko kung ano i-eexpect ko sa ibang mga entrance exams nga university. ANG HIRAP! Paglabas ko ng testing room, lahat ng dugo ko naubos na. Tanggap ko na hindi ako makakapasok kaya 'di ako umasa. Tapos February, na-'tanga' ako nung isang tao dyan mula sa ValSci (Oo, pinariringgan kita hahaha) sinasabing pumasa daw ako. Ako naman, 'huh?'. In short, di ko naramdaman yung euphoria. Wala. Parang pumasa lang ako sa isang level sa isang computer game.

 

Sabi nila maraming "nagpapakamatay" makapasok lang sa UP. Hindi sumagi sa isip ko yun. Ewan ko kung bakit. Exaggerated kasi siguro. Sa lagay ko siguro, hindi ako magpapakamatay para sa UP... magpapatiwakal ako para sa course na gusto ko. Exaggerated? Siguro. Pero mas gusto ko naman pakinggan yun.

 

Balik sa unang tanong: Lilipat ba ako?


Sabi nila kung sa UP ka, maganda kinabukasan mo. OO, TAMA YUN! Madaling makahanap ng trabaho. OO TAMA RIN YUN! Pero paano kung labag na sa loob mo yung ginagawa mo? Maganda nga ang kinabukasan ko pero magiging masaya ba ako kung yun ang pipiliin ko? 'Di ko na alam. Sabi nila pagsisisihan ko daw kapag umalis ako dun. Siguro. Hindi ko alam. Ano nang gagawin ko?

 

Sa mga makakabasa, please mag-iwan po ng comment. 'Di ko na alam gagawin ko.

 

Thanks! Salamat ng marami!

Currently listening to: Synchronicity: Tsubasa Tokyo Revelations
Currently feeling: cold
Posted by azuresonata at 09:21 AM in Life as we know it | 4 Marks left

October 30th, 2008

New blog layout: Complexity! [Tabulas && Blogger]

It's not exactly new. Complexity is the latest layout I made. It's actually for my CMSC 10 presentation (which turned out well btw). It features real!Sakura && real!Syaoran along with their clone counterparts. Haha! next time, I'll do Kobato&&Fujimoto! Since they're my latest OTP 031.gif(One True Pairing, you dummies). Oh! I updated my sidebar with stamps. I figure that it would be easier that way to tell who I am.  I also added another content page (Tabulas) which features my old layouts. It's good to look back sometimes.

Oh, with regards to my previous post:

Sure na ako na lilipat ako, peeps! Although di ko pa alam kung this sem or next school year na 055.gif. Thank you dun sa mga sumagot kagabi: Cristina, Pat, Ef (ang sipag nya XD), Yung friend ni Maykol na 'di ko kilala pero nag-comment din, Joanna,  subjunctive, si Sir Claour (haha) na ngayon ngayon lang nag-salita.

 

Thanks, peepz!

 

Azie

Currently listening to: Link (you're listening to it too!)
Currently feeling: determined
Posted by azuresonata at 03:22 AM in Life as we know it | 6 Marks left

October 31st, 2008

Example ng bitter na Bebz.

1. HOW OLD WILL YOU TURN IN 2009?

♠ 17.

2. DO YOU THINK YOU'LL BE MARRIED BY

THEN??

♠ patay na ako nun.

3. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FORWARD TO IN THE

NEXT FOUR MONTHS?

♠ makalipat sa ibang school

4.WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON TO TEXT YOU?

♠ si Che.

5.WHAT DOES IT SAY?

♠ san na kau?

6. DO YOU PREFER TO CALL OR TEXT?

♠ ym 8D. multi-purpose! pede na pang-text!

7. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?

♠ a dog!

8. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT 1AM?

♠ nagbabasa ng A Purpose Driven Life

9. WHAT ABOUT 3AM?

♠ tulog na

10. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW

YOUR MOTHER?

♠ moments ago

11. WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO?

♠ makalipat ng school.

12. HOW MANY BOOKS DO YOU HAVE?

♠ All Harry Potter books(7)/Classics(21)/ Twilight (bleh! 4) / schoolbooks (madami yan)/ MANGA (isang kahon. 'Di ko na binibilang)

14. DO YOU PREFER SHOES, SOCKS, OR slippers?

♠ slippers

15. ARE YOU A SOCIAL PERSON?

♠ no. In fact, I bite. (Blunt na sagot)

16. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?

♠ wala. depressed ako.

17. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR/S

♠ red, brown, silver, black... oriental colors.

18. What are you doing for your next

birthday?

♠ ewan. May mag-ce-celebrate ba kasama ko? Taon-taon ako nag-eeffort para sa kanila... feeling ko pag ako naman parang sila ang wala. Mas masipag pa bumati yung mga online friends/forum buddies ko sa kanila. (Yah... bitter ako.)

19. What is your favorite tv show?

♠ ANIME/DOCUMENTARIES/HISTORICAL SHOWS/ MYSTERY SHOWS/ (Wag muh na itanong... marami sila. Genre na lang)

20. What are you wearing now?

♠ Why would you care?

21. Do you like coffee or tea?

♠ tea

22. Are you watching TV?

♠ Hinde. Anu papanoorin ko? Philippines entertainment industry TOTALLY sucks.

23.What is your favorite game on your

cell phone?

♠ The Sims Castaway (parang ako)

24. Who knows more about you than

anyone else?

♠ Sarili ko. Tsaka mga stuff toy ko.

25. What is one thing nobody knows

about you?

♠ Hindi ko kailangang sabihin yun sa'yo.

27. What are you thinking about right

now?

♠ wala

28. Any plans for this weekend?

♠ LUMAYAS SA BAHAY

30. Have you already made a resolution

for 2009?

♠ Magpatiwakal... siguro?

31. How many people do you think will

read this?

♠ Wala.

32. What is your desktop wallpaper?

♠ TRC

33. Have you ever been in an ambulance?

♠ No. Trycicle na ginawang ambulance. O.O

34. Do you prefer an ocean or pool?

♠ Ocean. Para kapag nalunod ako, wala nang makakakita sa akin.

35. How many true friends do you have?

♠ ANG DAMI NILA! plastic nga lang yung iba. (bitter talaga)

37. What is your favorite things to

spend money on?

♠ anime stuff

38. Do you wear any jewelry?

♠ earrings

39. Who is the funniest person you

know?

♠ Ewan?

40. Who is the loudest person you know?

♠ Pake ko?

41. do something then regretted it?

♠ OO! See the title?

42.What is your favorite season of the

year?

♠ Winter. (Malamig rin buhay ko)

43.What is your favorite time of day?

♠ midnight

44.What is the main ring tone on your

cell phone?

♠ wala.

45. Do you shut off the water when you

brush your teeth?

♠ sometimes.

46.What do you want for your birthday?

♠ may magbibigay ba?

47.What is your favorite item to order

at Mcdo?

♣ Float.

48. Do you wish someone was with you

right now?

♠ wala. Maligaya na ako nun.
Currently listening to: Sakasama no Chou
Currently reading: RP logs
Currently feeling: cold
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